New Blog

Soooo.......

I got sick of blogging about myself. Kinda boring, right? Just me and my hubby, and our 2 cats of course :) Ryan works a lot, I work part time and am a part to full time housewife, and occasionally we get out on the weekends and do something fun and try to explore the Bay Area. Once I started working and had more important things going on, I didn't feel like making time to sit in front of the computer and chat on and on about myself, how narcissistic!! And really, who cares??

Well, I like to write (maybe I'll even write a book one day :) I think I'm semi-okay at it, and that's enough for me! Some of you may know, most of you may not know, that Ryan and I have struggled to have kids for 7.5 years. We've been married for a little over 8 years, and I've wanted to be a mom since as long as I can remember. That's probably why I'm a teacher, and as much as I love my little 5 year old students, they are not mine, and I am not their mother.

Since we've moved back to the Bay Area, I've gotten really interested in holistic living, and learning how I can heal my body naturally. We tried fertility treatments while we lived in Southern California, but with no success. It was awful, I hated it and I will never go to Western medicine again to try to achieve pregnancy. Along my holistic path, I've learned so, so, so, so, so much and I wouldn't give it up for the world. I'm learning what I can do now to help my body heal, be balanced, and be healthy, and in turn once I am pregnant, I will be able to give my child such a beautiful gift of a life starting in great health! It's important to me, it's become my main goal in life, and I'm so passionate about it that I wanted to share what I have been learning. I'm getting closer, and I truly believe that once I am able to stop taking all my prescription medication, there will be a baby on the way :)

So now I'm blogging again, but not entirely about myself. I'm blogging about what I've been learning, so that hopefully I can help and inspire someone else who might be in the same situation as me.

Here is my new blog; I call it "Conceivable", because it is conceivable to me that I can make healthy diet and lifestyle changes, heal my body with food, herbs and essential oils, and become pregnant one day soon!

Check it out, and let me know what you think!!

http://conceivablyttc.blogspot.com/

It's raining, it's pouring

This is what it looks like outside today . . .

So I'll be doing this for my workout today :( I really love running outside. At least I have the option to do it most of the time. A day here or there on the treadmill isn't too bad I guess. Working on Week 3 of 8 Weeks to a 10K!!

Off I go!

It has definitely been a while!

So I may start blogging again, but I'm not entirely sure. There's not much to blog about with just Ryan and I. He works a lot, weekends and all, and even though I only work part time, we live with family so I kind of take care of things like cooking and cleaning all the time. Unfortunately, we don't do many of the exciting things that we were looking forward to doing when we found out we were moving back to the Bay Area. It's hard to find balance when you're not always on your own time.

However, I have been putting a lot of time and effort in to improving my health, and hopefully the health of my husband (when he gives in to my demands!) and that of the family I am living with as well. I won't get in to the main reason for why I am trying to drastically improve my health, but if you know me well enough, you know why. When things start to get exciting and start happening, maybe then I'll reveal my reasons.

Okay, so what have I been doing? Nothing crazy, but I got a Blendtec and I make green smoothies every morning, and have been for the last 4 months or so. Yes, every morning, and I make 5 of them! I have also been eating a lot more "nutritarian" like, which means eating lots of nutrient dense foods. So, no processed food, tons of veggies and fruit, and I'm also trying to eat gluten, dairy, and soy free. Dairy is easy, gluten is sneaky and is in everything! I also get a foot zone a few times a month. I believe the correct term is Foot Zone Balancing. Anyway, it's similar to reflexology and what it is helping me to do is realign my body and all it's inner workings back to it's perfect state, the way it's supposed to be before life and environmental factors get in there and mess it up. Of course, there really is no "perfect" state, but I can try to get close!

Well, we'll see if I do more blogging or not. There are so many aspects of it that I know nothing about, all the technical buttons, lists, blogrolls, fancy little things on the side, etc. And it's also very time consuming, which I don't like because time is one of the most valuable commodities we have, and the way we use it is a deep reflection of who we are. I would rather use my time to better myself and my family. But maybe by cataloging what I'm actually doing to better myself is a good thing too :)

I Found A Job!!

2 1/2 weeks ago we moved away from Southern California.

I was pretty happy about moving, we didn't have the best time living there. It wasn't horrible, but I especially wasn't very happy living there either. We had some fun times and I don't regret it, and I learned some valuable lessons and also learned some things about myself.


Right now we are staying with my aunt, uncle and cousin in Fremont. I love it, we're having a lot of fun and we're so grateful they've opened their home to us. We even brought our cats and they are starting to get along with the dog! My cousins Rachel and Desiree (although Desi is in Idaho) are the closest relationship I have to having actual sisters, so it's very fun being here.


Ryan is working at a job he previously had before we left California and moved to Idaho. We're very grateful that they have been gracious to give him a position and he's been there for over a month already. We don't know how long it will be for, at least 6 months to a year most likely, until the economy slowly starts to improve and he can find a job in commercial construction again.


I have been substituting at a preschool I used to work at before we got married and left California and I'm having a blast!! The kids are so fun and cute, and I love the school, I have always carried fond memories of working there so it's great to be back. I've been helping them out about 2 days a week, and am their permanent on call sub until August, when I start my new job!!


In August I will be a young 5's teacher at a preschool on the peninsula in Portola Valley, and I couldn't be more thrilled!!

The students have already been through preschool, and are either just a little too young for kindergarten, or their parents want them to have an even stronger foundation before they enter kindergarten. There are 14 children in the class and there are 2 of us teachers. I will be the lead teacher of the group. It gets even better, they follow the school year calendar so I have Thanksgiving, Christmas, Easter and summers off!! It's the best feeling in the world, because once again I'll be a true teacher, and not a teacher and day care provider. My heart is full of gratitude and I'm thrilled that things are coming together for us!!!


I know that moving back to Fremont was the absolute right thing for us to do, and I think that Ryan probably got laid off so we could come back here. I have found a dream job, he's doing well at his job, we are near friends and family and I truly couldn't be happier! Life in Southern California felt so unpredictable and out of control, and those of you who know me well know that I have a very hard time tolerating things like that and my patience wears thin easily. I had made plans for our life there and nothing that I wanted came to actually happening. Of course that's life, but after dealing with it and being unhappy, we are finally getting a break and get to be on the up again!

Finally things are going well and working out and I love it!!

Lovin NorCal

Fremont with Mission Peak in the background

We moved 2 weeks ago and I couldn't be happier!!!

It's so beautiful and green here right now from all the rain, and we're so close to friends and family, it's fantastic!! We're so grateful to have family who have opened their home to us, and old job connections who were willing to help us out in our time of need. Ryan is working and I've been substituting and interviewing, and should be landing a job pretty soon! Although it has been difficult, I really feel like we made the right choice in moving here. It's sad that Ryan was laid off from such a wonderful job, but we're a lot happier now so maybe it wasn't such a bad thing after all :)

On The Move . . .

From Rexburg, Idaho (where we lived from 1999-2001, 2003-2008). . .

To Santa Clarita, California (2008-2010). . .

Back to Fremont where we were born and raised!!

(Background info: Ryan and I are from Fremont, California. After high school we went to Rexburg, Idaho for college. We came back to Fremont for about 2 years, got married in 2003, and then returned to Rexburg, Idaho)

In January 2008 Ryan was recruited to work at the Southern California division of a nation-wide commercial construction company. He had just graduated in Construction Management, and I was in the middle of teaching my first year of first grade, and we were living in Idaho. We made the decision that he should take the job and move, and I would join him in June when the school year was over. It was an amazing opportunity for a great job that we couldn't pass up. I stayed at our house with all of our things, and in June 2008 Ryan came out for a week, we packed up (and packed, and packed, and packed) and moved to Santa Clarita, CA.

It was exciting and new at first, and within 2 months of moving I found a job teaching kindergarten at a small, private preschool. Then after a while we started to realize that Southern California wasn't quite for us. We experienced quite a few disappointments while living here, and I realized it's not really all that it's cracked up to be living in sunny California. Being from the Bay Area, we found ourselves visiting it there quite a bit and actually missing it. I always felt like we were in the "wrong" part of California. I guess it's my NorCal pride!!

It hasn't been horrible living here, we've actually done a lot of fun things, it just isn't a place we really wanted to spend the rest of our lives in. But, Ryan had a great job and we knew that over time things would smooth out and we'd get accustomed to life in SoCal.

Then about 2 weeks before Christmas 2009, Ryan was unexpectedly laid off from his job due to the economy. It came as a total shock and we had no idea what to do. My job was solid so I just kept working while we tried to figure out what to do. Everything was up in the air and it was driving me crazy!! Should he try to find another job here in SoCal even though we'd rather be somewhere else? Should we go back to Idaho? Should we try to go back to the Bay Area where we haven't lived for 7 years??? I am very much a planner and do not do well when life throws unexpected turns, so my stress level was pretty high, but I tried to stay calm while we rationalized and weighed our options.

Ryan tried and tried to look for a job here but came up with nothing. There's nothing happening in Idaho so for right now we dismissed that option too. We were getting desperate, he needed to start working asap. Thankfully, he was able to find a job, but in the Bay Area. And thankfully, we have caring, supportive family members who have opened their homes to us while we try to smooth out this major bump in the road.

So Ryan starts work next week and is moving to Fremont this weekend. Our lease is up Feb. 11th so I'm staying at my job until Feb. 12th, just to get through our lease. I figure I might as well keep working while I have the opportunity to do so. Then I'll try to find a job once we move to the Bay Area. We have no idea how temporary or permanent this is going to be, but it's something for now so we decided we need to go with it. We may make our way back to Idaho, but for now it's back to the Bay. I guess there's no place like home!! I have to admit, I did a lot of complaining during our time in Southern California, so it makes me wonder if God heard my complaints and granted us a way out, even though it's not the easiest!!

It's extremely unfortunate that Ryan was laid off because he had so much going for him and could have done great things for the company he was working for. He wasn't the only one let go, though, so he just fell victim to this recession that we're going through. We might be nomads for a while, but as long as we can pay the bills and be together, we'll be able to get through it!

Hawaii Post Soon!

We just got back last night and I leave tomorrow for Boise to visit my family for a week! The trip was amazing, we had such a great time!!!!!! Once I get back from Boise I'll be able to spend a little time blogging about it.